Saturday, September 23, 2006

When Fate Confirms Faith
(Saturday Scavenger Hunt is Below this post)

I wasn't even going to post today. I actually was thinking about taking a few days off posting.

I had a rough week physically, and I had some news I took really badly. My emotional state was in the dumps.

I am one of very strong faith. I let go when I have times like this, and I give it all to God. I have a very close relationship with God, and I have never doubted God's presence.

I knew that if I gave my anguish to God all would
be ok. What I didn't expect was an adventure that
would take me into the Spirit fast, and yank me back out again with so much new knowledge and affirmation that I am ending my day, just HAVING to tell you all what happened today!

It all started last night. I dug out the boxes and boxes of knitting patterns I have, looking for one specific pattern. It is a simple newborn quick knit sweater. I found all of my patterns and I could not find this pattern, which is my favorite.

I was really disappointed. While I have been knitting my Socks For Sheep pieces I wanted to get out my sweater book to prep for a gift piece
I wish to make for someone who is expecting soon.

The pattern was gone. Not to be found by me.
I pined over the loss of my favourite book. I went to Walmart with Carl and I looked to see if they had a newer copy of the pattern book.
Nothin'. They had very few pattern books and the ones they had were quite expensive. I went to the 'big box' craft store called Michaels. They didn't have it either, and their books were even more expensive. I saw one book I liked and it had a clearance sticker on it with no price. I took it up to the cash and the cashier said that this was not a clearance item yet, it was being sold for full price. The full price was horrendous, so I said that I would not take the book, and I left.

I planned to go to a local yarn shop that was in the phone book. I had two yarn shops listed in the next town to me. The first yarn shop had their voice mail on today. They said they were having a big sale on the weekend and were closed today. I called the next yarn shop and they told me where in town they were located.

Cam and I drove to the yarn shop. He waited for me in the car. I said I would be 10 minutes tops. For they would have the pattern or they wouldn't. I entered the yarn shop. It was beautifully laid out. Wonderful cubbyholes adorned the walls and the hardwood floors shone clean. Yarn, yarn, yarn, and sofas, and worktables and chairs, and organized racks of books. At the top of the cubbies were beautiful knit pieces so one could see a finished product.

I chatted with the clerk about the books. She knew what I was looking for and she guided me to the area to look at the racks.

I found quite a few great patterns, but not the one I wanted. I found a few that would be great alternatives. I was amazed at the prices. I got all the books you see here( in total) in the post for less than the price of one book at Michaels or Walmart!

What happened next was like glorianna shining upon me. While I was in the shop a woman had arrived. She talked like the owner. She came to help myself and the clerk look for a ribbon yarn that I took an interest to, in a knitted piece. We found it and I had a look at the ribbon colour choices, and I knew that choosing the colour would have to be for another day. The two women walked back to the check-out with me.
I started to say that I was knitting again now in my life as a form of physical therapy. The owner turned to me and told me she knew what I meant. She said it was her first time into the shop in 4 yrs. Illness had her laid up all that time, and the business had to run on its own.

At that moment I began to see her aura, I saw that she had the same look on her face as me as well. I was getting spirit messeges telling me that she needed to tell me what happened to her, and I needed to learn it, and it would help me. I didn't know her, I had never met her before, and I had to take this huge leap of faith to reveal myself to her.

I looked at her right in the eye. I had to ask her, and I said it plainly, "What happened to you?"

She shared a story of her physical problem. Then I knew why I was compelled to come there that day. The day that was her first day back to work in 4 yrs. The day I was running from my darkness. The day she stood before me and repeated a story, one just like mine, of chronic neuropathic pain, and the story of her trying to recover, and being faced with two surgeries. And the story so much like mine, and the discoveries that complete diaganosis took so long because the problems are so rare.

God sent me to meet a woman I didn't know, who had followed another path in her treatment, who had to tell me about something rare the doctors won't look for, but have to, to get to the end of this medical horror show I live every day.

Like me she will never be normal again, but she is trying to have some presence in her business so she can move on, even just a little in her life and find her new normal too.

Then I thought, so why do I get all my answers and she gets nothing in return. Then it came, the reason she stayed away, the reason she was drawn to come in at that particular time on that particular day. Her confidence had been totally shattered by the Effasia. Brain/neurpathic injuries cause Effasia. An inability to be able to speak the word you are thinking of. You go to say it and a totally dumb word comes out that makes no sense. I have been able to work on my effasia and speak at a speed slow enough that I can catch my body trying to speek the dumb word. It turns into a stammer, but I can correct it now. I needed to tell her that I had overcome the effasia, and some of the memory problems, and I have some techniques to help her. And mostly I could empathise with her loss of confidence, for mine is shattered too.

She does not even know how much she helped me. She will never know, for I cannot express what having the new knowledge about the medical problems we have helped me with regaining me feeling of control of my health. Or, I guess, a feeling of being able to be proactive in my health-keep.

Being sick is always hard when you own your own business. You can't keep on top of stuff. I had to completely give up the idea of being a driving instructor as I learned more and more of how much of the damage I had been stricken with was permanent. So I know exactly what this very wonderful woman is going through.

So I am going to back to the yarn shop soon, and do a whole piece on their wares and the great classes they have there, and the cool yarns and patterns they have.

For now I am showing you the great books I got today for a song (not on sale, regular low low prices) and a link button at the top of the page(the Knit or Knot sheep picture) for the shop so you can at least have a boo at the kind of things you can order online from the store.

Cam said I picked good books. He said all the "Emo" kids would like that animal back packs and furry gloves and accessories. Emo kids are the kids that come to his concerts. They listen to Metal, Punk and Ska music. They are late age teens that dress in fairy costumes and dye their hair funny colours and like bright and weird backpacks and purses. Even "Emo" guys would wear the back packs. Cam wants it known he is not 'Emo' and he can't help who his followers are. He is a strictly black T-shirt and black pants kinda guy.

Cam says I should make one "Emo" animal back pack for the Socks for Sheep. He said the lady who is doing the sale will sell it fast-quick once the 'Emo' kids see it! So I am inspired.

Inspired in a day where God dragged me out in the world to tell me a story that I needed to hear. And sent me to a woman who really needed to talk to someone about what she had gone through, and could feel like she supported someone on her first day she tried to come out to the real world too!

I love it when Fate Confirms Faith!

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Saturday Scavenger Hunt

Today's Theme Is: Eyes

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2004-Amber Decorated Alex for Easter

This is a pic of a stuffed rat named "Scabbers"

Cam on a camping trip in 2004

2005- Becky on her Wedding Day!


Dani said...

A nice collection of eye photos!

Mandy said...

Great collage of eyes. Alex looks like he's loving every minute of being dressed up for Easter! hehe

Happy Saturday

babymoi said...

hi! the queerchef pimped me here! have a nice day! and oh yeah...nice photos! :)

Denise said...

Very nice collection of eyes! :)

Janet said...

Scabbers! I know that name :-)

great shots :-)

Lazy Daisy said...

Good Choices. Wedding eyes? Eyes of love. Awwww.

Wystful1 said...

LOL...on the eyeglasses with toys hanging off 'em. And the others....great family shots!!! I like how y'all have multiple eye themes....I never thought of it...only one for me.

RheLynn said...

*hug* I'm glad you were able to connect with the lady at the store - and I'm sure being able to tell someone her story (after not being able to speak the words she wanted to) was cleansing for her as well.

I am amazed at all your work for Socks for Sheep! I made a button for them but my actual knitting is not very advanced :o(

So, is your pattern book hiding where my 1968 Workbasket book is hiding? I've looked all over the house twice and haven't found mine either ;o)

Lynn said...

Hey everyone thanks for the comments!

Probably my book ran away with your book. I will look to see if I have a copy of the 1968 book.
I have hundreds of the workbasket magazines. Do you remember what stuff was in the issue.
You need to understand that my Grandmother, being the dress designer and crafter she was, collected thousands of books from the 30's on. I have a great number of these craft books.I have a series of work basket magazines. Bless her for being such a pack rat!

Leslie said...

Great pictures! The first one is my favorite.

Deb said...

Happy eyes...happy Saturday!
Mine's up, too :)

Karen said...

Lots of nice photos of eyes.

My SPH is up too.

GoofyJ said...

A lot of beautiful eye photos! :) thanks for stopping by

Expat Traveler said...

wow - lots of eyes, they all look wonderful!! thanks for the visit.

YellowRose said...

Great collage! Let me quess that "scabbers" is named after Harry Potter's Ron's rat? LOL

Happy Saturday!

barman said...

These are awesome. I think my favorite is the rat picture followed by the first picture. Perfect for this week.

Mine is finally up.

RheLynn said...
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Carmen said...

the one with the glasses is so funny! Great!

RheLynn said...

Lynn: I found the book! Thanks for the offer to look in yours ;o) - it 'motivated' me to look high and low tonight and I found it tucked in the back of a cupboard (funny how 'safekeeping' often ends up in 'oh that's where I put it!) heh.

I do hope you find yours or that the new copy works well for you!

Biker Betty said...

Great photos. I love the one with the toys hanging on the glasses.

Mother of Invention said...

Couldn't find where to comment on Sunday's? Anyway, how affirming for you, this whole wonderful day. What are the chances eh? It was orchestrated from above! Hope you both are doing a lot better. I kind of understand the struggle but not totally. Each is a bit different. I like how those nice soft wholesome pics were just rolling along the side as you read this amazing story!